I was born on 22nd of december 1985 in Alfeld/Leine, a small town in Germany, where I grew up in a very religious environment within a loving family which made me into who I am today.
My paper for the final exam began with the words: “the world” doesn’t exist.
Everybody got another point of view on “the” world and therefore experiences it in a different way. So “the” world can’t exist, since everybody sees another world where he or she life's in. How you grew up, your cultural and psychological background, determine a great part of how you’ll see the world as an adult. Even when this only effects you threw your subconsciousness. The other part you can determine yourself, threw your choices (for or against what you got told).
So my work also is made fromout my own specific point of view. You can see my fascinations in them, just as much as I try to let you feel what I felt, while creating them. My paintings and video works often discuss (in)humanity, religion, other social themes or femininity while my photographs are more a conservation of the moment. In whatever medium I work, my works are about something that bothers me or that bewitches me (may it be in a good or in a bad way). I either love or hate my subjects. I’m always in a fight with them, trying to define them, while I know they are not easy to define, just as a feeling can’t be put into words easily.
With my photographs I capture the beauty of a specific moment, that visually reflects what I felt at that point in time. With my pictures I show this emotion directly and intimately, by letting the viewer have a look threw my eyes, using the technique of photography. I try to let him/her feel the love, fascination, connection, uncertainty or strangeness I felt.
My photographs are about astonishing, weird, beautiful, relaxing, erotic and loving moments. While knowing that everybody got there own point of view and therefor notion of what beauty is, they can only show ‘my’ view of what beauty is. Therefor I also like them to be rough as I personally experience life itself. Cause to me they are a reflection of my life.
Sometimes I scale the photographs to in a large format, to show them as I imagine them in my mind and sometimes I print them in a book to get closer to the intimate atmosphere I made them in. The photograph determines the size, while different sizes are a possibility for the same picture, depending on the context they’re displayed in. Most of the time I make series of pictures with the same subject-matter and often about the same persons. I need to feel closely connected to the moment or person I photograph, to be able to take a ‘good’ picture. I only use the original, that means I never cut or improve the pictures other than the usual (brightness for example).
My paintings often seduce while being repulsive to the general public at the same time. That’s what I want then to be. They reflect my own favor for death and decay, and for aesthetics often shown threw the beauty of woman. Whereas my woman figures often symbolize the different roles of woman in the 20th century, where they are often seen either as whores or “holy” virgins in comparison to other centuries and areas.
My exam-paper furthermore discussed how much of a human life is free choice, and how much you can’t choose that easily, such as: gender, the country and social class you’re born in, what kind of experiences you make as a child etc. I’m very interested in social structures and interactions, unrighteousness, religion, femininity and death.
Subjects between love (fascination, beauty, empathy) or hate (war, fear, pain) are never a starting point for me, as I need a strong visual and emotional input to work with. The beginning always is a picture I see and connect with immediately, on the very first impulse. Mostly it is a small part of the picture that captures my fascination.
When I think to know what about this piece of the picture fascinates me, I start putting it back together with other imagery till it becomes a new whole again that gives me back this initial feeling.
While creating a new work I like to play with symbols and stereotypes, as well as with the media itself.
Mainly my paintings are large formats. I like to be flaunting cause I like the work to overpower the viewer at the first seconds and then while they’re recovering, get deeper into their minds.
In my performances I mostly collaborate with other artists. The idea inquires the medium to work in. Some things need the actual life act of an performance to show the inter-social interactions and help the public to empathize.
Academy for fine arts; AKV St.Joost; Den Bosch, NL - 2006-2010, degree:2010
FOS-Gestaltung (design); Walter-Gropius-Schule; Hildesheim, DE - 2002-2004, degree:2004
Realschule; Realschule-Alfeld; Aldeld/Leine, DE - 1998-2002, degree:2002
Furthermore I’m the owner of my own business (Cherrys Art-Tattoo) since Juli 2006.
I’ll finish my art-study in July 2010